365 Days Around The Sun

Coincidence

First off. If you are still reading about me on these BLOGS, I thank you immensely! I don’t mind if you quit. Shit I would quit reading them! Because I am boring to myself. The nature of all of them (blogs) are starting to sound the same. BUT I AM MORE THAN APPRECIATIVE OF YOUR SUPPORT! I hope I am not coming on too strong or stupid, but I need this and honestly if you don’t read ‘em any longer no worries, it is just an outlet for me. So that when my SCA takes away my abilities to write and or see; and it may shortly. The (you) have a memory of me in written form. One of the side effects ‘SCA’ gives you is ‘memory loss.’  Along with the ability to make cognitive sense.

It takes away your walking first and then gives you something else. The ability to talk or feel things. I can longer feel my right foot. SCA as NASCAR drivers say to their competitors, you are number ONE. My family/friends can look back and say, those were his thoughts and feelings. At this time or in the future, you both can look in my past and say HE wrote them from his heart and the memories he experienced. And there is so much I need to say to you, I want something for you to remember me by. I just hope I am not wasting your time, because we can never buy back time!

I should of wrote about my family for chapter 50 and not Kermit. You and I cannot look back; we can only move forward, as chapter 50 is now history.

She turned my heart around. First it was Holly and then it was EMMA. The dreams that saved my life. The fire that burns inside of me.

We (Holly and myself) will celebrate 25 years on the 27^th Half of 50 and our daughter was born on the 27^th.. Coincidence? Maybe! My heart was full and still is, the journey of when LOVE began. My best friends! We created the book of love. Neither of those (27’s) could have just been happenstance. As I think about it, GREEN too has always been a (COINCIDENCE) part of me as well.

Let’s get to GREEN. I live in a town called GREENsboro. My favorite football team plays in GREEN Bay and my church where I was married to the love of my life is on GREENe street, different spelling with the (e), but you get the point. How is the 27^th and GREEN so much a part of my life? By the way GREEN is also my favorite color.

My wife works a second job and yet I don’t say “Thank You,” as she more than deserves the compliment. My daughter this week (Saturday) took her ‘old-man’ to work to set up his gear for Monday’s early morning shoot. And she never complained one bit. She knows I know that I struggle with common every-day tasks and yet there she was by my side. Everything she did was because of ME. The day made me cry, not because I was sad but because my heart was full.

I need to be more appreciative of the big things and think twice about the things that make me angry, because GOD has been sending me hints. The 27^th and GREEN.

A day in paradise and I always continue to ALWAYS FOCUS on the negative aspects. While I most certainly appreciate the positive, I sometimes and usually do focus on the things that drive me crazy… I VERY MUCH do.

God gave me one more day with these two! The opportunity to spend time with these two and the color GREEN. How could I ever forget those positive moments.

I LOVE YOU two ladies but ya’ll do not deserve me. I might just be memory down the road; but know you are not just a coincidence you are my forever. AND so much better than the color GREEN, however, we made great memories with the color and the date of the 27^th.

Let’s just give thanks and praise to what WE have!

I do not care anymore, yet here I am. I wish somedays I was just by myself, and I know I am not, but I have tried, I am tired. And maybe one day I will be done. Forget the GREEN. It was lame anyway. Take away all the loss of hope and sadness. I don’t ever want to make me, or you cry because of sadness. I want to make you cry because I was there. We were a family like Emma did for me today. Or Holly did when were married. Everything will be gone one day. One day I cannot live without you, family, and friends. Coincidence, maybe. Odds are no